parenthetical @parenthetical@monads.online

blackout poetry of this toot:

folks im pretty

folks im pretty bad at chess

abolishing masculine-feminine spectra in favor of link-zelda-ganondorf triangles

me, age 12, trying to fill out the same template i've created for all the different alien creatures my friends and i have mentioned in our shared sf universe: why does this feel like work

maybe i feel this so acutely because i spent so much of my youth trying to create encyclopedic treatments of my own imaginative play and being generally frustrated with the results

the incredible thing about d&d is that, being inspired by works of fiction that introduce new things or use old things in new ways, its approach is to compile a catalog of all the things there are and what they all do

zelda game where you set the gender of link, zelda and ganondorf independently before starting

and i think it bears some examining in my own life how much i get invested in X bad actor or Y problem because of the injustice at hand or because it is a base pleasure to be angry at something other people are angry at. i'm not saying i should strive to be a tranquil bystander while bad things are happening, obviously, but i think it's worth recognizing and reckoning with while trying to do right.

one interesting thing is that he says on shabos or when studying torah are times to practice this sort of complete, radical humility and that struck me as quite lovely. i like the idea of setting aside anger completely in order to live in the redeemed world for a bit, even if we know we have to return to it.

like 3/4 if the way through chapter two he says that a person obviously cannot practice these qualities all the time, they need to be mixed with sterner qualities.

imo he should have led with that because it totally changed my orientation to them and made me much more receptive to the ideal he's presenting.

my immediate reaction to the first two chapters, which are all about cultivating mercy and humility in imitation of Hashem, was alienation. like i just could not relate to the translation of these divine attributes into the human interpersonal realm, it just feels wrong to say "not only should you not be angry another person even if you have a totally good cause to be, you should actively seek out the good in your relationship to them to love them more."

i'm trying to learn the tomer devorah this year for the ten days of repentance and i have a lot of thoughts about it

i fried some tofu and then whipped up a sauce of red miso, garlic, ginger, scallions and vegetable stock and folks: that shit is quite good

next, monads megadungeon

fun fact the main design of this house (although it was not of this scale) came to me in a dream

@dankwraith @Manurweibling @horsefucker_thicc i welcome opinions about whether living here would be nice or nightmarish. i also welcome the uh, tens of millions of dollars needed to build it.