Mads "Sex Understander" Viande @byttyrs@monads.online

little homos room

BIG homo's room

other people: I write things in a planner as I learn about them, and then on a day-to-day basis I compile the most urgent and relevant into to-do lists, and then I proceed through the tasks on my list until they are all done

me, awed and humbled: truly, even your grimoire and the humblest of your paper talismans are steeped in your power! why, through all my studies in perturbing my subtle body, I have only succeeded in setting and following through on one 'to-do' ritual at a time

unbroken skin lies so sweetly
until its cracks writhe free of
surface. what nostalgia this? —
only dreamstuff, forgotten
and recalled. sand, water,
life, pain never rest until
they slip away between
the cracks in your fingers.

cracks in the world where
decent people daren't go
to be seen only from other
cracks, another vantage.

I have run circles here
weaving round the pillars
holding up the earth and
cupping my hands,
for years unsure if I beg
or rescue what the cracks
of sunlight loose below.

the hourglass screams
time but whispers death.
put your hands down.

a little master thread of things I've made that you can or should read:

why are my knees so swollen. I wore those loafers for less than an hour and a half and I was in a car for like half of that

soon I will be working 50hrs a week, kill me

everything is just bullshit forever because we all have yo structure our lives around a totally nonsensical 40hr/week work schedule that everyone knows doesn't work or line up with actual human capabilities

if this don't kill me it had damn well better make me stronger or I'm gonna shit myself in God's eye